Haters Will Say "Dude, It's Already the End of March"

[elyusion]

But I'm doing my February summary anyways! I've gone 2 weeks without posting, which is unusual for me and I don't like it. (>posts too often >feels bad >posts too little >also feels bad >???) I fell behind on my reading page and I didn't want to keep posting while not keeping up with everyone else. I didn't want anyone to think I was ignoring them because I secretly hate them or something. I also read all the replies in my inbox and didn't reply to them sooner because...? I don't even know. I do tend to not reply to things immediately because I don't want to seem weird by responding too fast, but after 24 hours I don't really have an excuse.

So I've decided I should post whenever I want to and not worry about other people thinking I hate them. (We're not 16 anymore, if you feel unloved just say something or go distract yourself.) I should reply to things as soon as I read them and have thoughts on the matter, and I added everyone's feeds to my RSS reader so I can't miss anything. If I have access to your locked posts then I added you to my bookmarks to remember to check in on those too. So there, so no more radio silence from me unless I'm actually going through it.

What I Did

• Not sure if I said this before, but I'm reading Sora wa Akai Kawa no Hotori/Anatolia Story/Red River and Yona of the Dawn along with a group in a Discord server. I had to warm up to YOTD, but since I'm over halfway through now I can say that it might be goated... As for Red River, I tried to read this before but dropped it because I coulda swore it said the protagonist was 14, and at that time I couldn't stand reading what looked to be a 14 year old be put in sexy nonconsensual situations for a long time. (Especially because it's often reccommended to lovers of From Far Away, so it felt like an insult towards From Far Away at the time.) But I tried reading it again and it said she's 15 now, which is a little better, but I also saw someone in the server call her 14 again so I just have no idea how old Yuuri is supposed to be. But it's whatever now, because the plot is actually crazy. [Wearing my shirt that says I💖POLITICAL INTRIGUE]


• I finished Sailor Moon R in February, I'm pretty sure. I know now that she gets better, but at the time I really did hate Chibiusa. The whole season was honestly kind of mid and I could feel myself losing my patience with the series as a whole, but You Shall See that everything ended up okay and I'm no longer mad (thanks to Sailor Moon S). @/chiral + achiral plz hmu if yall get the chance


• I was moviemaxxing. I watched The Dark Knight, Edward Scissorhands, Kamikaze Girls, Y Tú Mamá También, Aladdin (1992)*, The Incredibles, The Addams Family, Princess Mononoke*, Antz*, A Touch of Zen, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005), the Sailor Moon R Movie, and The Dark Crystal. I put asterisks next to rewatches. My official opinions on these areeeeee
  
  
  
  • 1. The Dark Knight is definitely a Man Movie(tm) and the ending monologue was speech but points for the toxic yaoi
  
  
  • 2. I hate misunderstanding plots fuck you fuck you fuck you I love you Edward
  
  
  • 3. It's like Nana if Nana O. was annoying (a good movie though)
  
  
  • 4. finally a movie validating my belief that many men are gay and have gay sex with each other by proxy (describing to each other their trysts with women)
  
  
  • 5. yup that was definitely a pre-9/11 movie
  
  
  • 6. this shit so damn American and capitalist but I can't explain it yet, I'll get back to this after reading more theory
  
  
  • 7. PEAKKKKKKK Morticia I would die for you but you already have Gomez so I'm basically chopped liver
  
  
  • 8. Like most Ghibli movies, it was nice but I'm so confused on how most of the reviews are people saying it changed them forever
  
  
  • 9. My mom is crazy for buying this for me on VHS
  
  
  • 10. So boring I almost died but then the ending was so beautiful
  
  
  • 11. ??????????????????????😭😭😭?????????
  
  
  • 12. I thought this movie would only be like implied gay but no, the sailor guardians for real were speculating that Mamoru might be bisexual or something
  
  
  • 13. The pacing is clearly so slow because they want you to look at their beautiful puppets and sets, which is fine and it was a cute movie but I kinda wish it was a show or something instead.
  
  


• I didn't play any video games :(


• I have a job, but I'm functionally unemployed because I'm rarely ever scheduled now. However! They call me in sometimes. So I basically work on-call for a damn gag gift store. This is kind of ridiculous, but I don't wanna quit because I like the work environment, so I was and still am searching for a second part-time job.


• I've been studying Japanese really hard :)

What I'm Going to Do These Last 10 Days of March (lol)

• I'm so so so so so sick of working on this game and I just want it to be DONE but I keep coming across new roadblocks q_q Pleeeeeease I want to move on and work on my website or a zine or something, anything else.


• I'm continuing reading my manga, I'm also reading a novel, I got 2 more movies to watch this month, I already finished Sailor Moon S so I'm watching Seirei no Moribito between SM seasons, etc.


• Of course I'm working on my fantl, which makes me way happier than making that game because I at least know what the hell I'm doing. (Maybe one day, when I finish the game and have it all figured out, making games will make me happy too. But until then I'm just mad.)


• Irrelevant and spoilers for March (lmfao), but can you guys hope for me that I find $1000 lying on the ground? Thanks!

Oh yeah, and I meant to say this way back at the end of the Snowflake Challenge: If we've spoken before, feel free to ask for access. Good for if you want more entries on your reading page, bad for if you hate things written with less-than-perfect grammar and which give you no valuable knowledge whatsoever.

Comments

[oneinist]

>posts too often >feels bad >posts too little >also feels bad >???
I didn't want to keep posting while not keeping up with everyone else.
So I've decided I should post whenever I want to and not worry about other people thinking I hate them.

Oh man, I can relate so much to this. I've been feeling the same way this last week, with plenty of ideas of what I want to post about, but not having replied to all my comments or being on top of my reading page, I also felt like I couldn't. But I wouldn't feel that way towards someone else sooo, I'm taking your advice and I'm also going to post when I feel like it!!

Yay for watching Sailor Moon - since you mention the R movie, does that mean that you're watching the 90s version of the show? I absolutely love it and how (however natural a magical girls show can be) the show just so naturally bends gender and includes different orientations.

I hope you find a way past those roadblocks and my fingers crossed for finding some surprise no-strings-attached cash.

[elyusion]

Yess, be free! Post whatever and whenever you like! Everyone will still be glad to receive your replies whenever you decide to check in on them.

I'm watching the 90s anime ^^ I own the entire manga, so there's not really a point in me watching Crystal. In fact, I assumed the anime would be better since it has more time to have silly moments with characters who aren't Usagi. It's crazy how gay the show is, and while it's definitely standing on the backs of all the queer shoujo characters before it, I guess it's just surprising for me to see so many of the archetypes in one series xD I love that about it!

Thank you for the well wishes! I hope things only get better for you too.