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Feb. 10th, 2025 12:48 am
elyusion: etna from disgaea (but perhaps blackwashed and with piercings added 🤫) (Default)
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◣ Chris ⊹ 20s ⊹ No They/Them◥
Current obsession: Probably clothes or fashion or something
〖 Website ⊹ [community profile] vkotd ⊹ [community profile] joseimuke 〗


【 Hobbies 】
⊹ gaming
⊹ drawing
⊹ reading
⊹ surfing the web
⊹ listening to music
⊹ studying languages
(right now, japanese, spanish,
and sometimes mandarin)
⊹ translating



【 Interests 】
⊹ humans
(history, culture,
language, etc.)
⊹ joseimuke
⊹ fashion
⊹ stuff that's
before my time
⊹ being gay or whatever



【 Please Interact 】
⊹ people who share my interests
⊹ people who are black like me
⊹ people not from/in the U.S.
⊹ #ethical and #tasteful perverts
⊹ queer/whatever you call it POC
⊹ the open-minded
⊹ translators
⊹ weirdos



【 Back! Back, I Say! 】
(I'm Probably On YOUR DNI)
⊹ netflixvania fans
⊹ bigots (with special emphasis
on racists and transphobes)
⊹ anti-socialists/communists
⊹ anti-shippers + people who are
annoying about being proship
⊹ meanies :(



Some of the art I like + some of my favorite characters ^^

About the Blog:
♦ I share and say pretty much whatever I want. Observations, reviews, beautiful things, helpful things, completely useless things, I've got it all. It's both personal and "fannish" because being a fan of things is part of my life and mind, but I do have other interests and happenings going on.

♦ Mutuals can ask for access. Don't be scared, because there should never be anything too crazy in there. It's only there because the internet is the wild west and some things I don't want just any villain to see every thing, you know? And it's ask-for-access instead of immediate-access because sometimes I write LONG posts that I don't want to sic on people without consent. Anything that's actually deeply personal or whatever actually has even more padlocks on it, and will only be seen by my most trusted advisors.

♦ If we haven't interacted in some time (if ever), I may unsubscribe. Whenever you come back to posting don't be afraid to poke me and say hi -- I'll most likely re-sub to you. If you find that you can't comment on my posts in order to poke me, then, well...

On InteractionCommenting: If you have something to say, don't be scared. I don't usually bite. I have it so people who don't have accounts can comment too, by the way. (Be nice so that it stays that way!)
Commenting on old entries: Frankly, this makes me even happier than comments on new posts. Just because a post is old doesn't mean I'm not still thinking about the topic. Hell, I might have new ideas or views to share on it.
Sending private messages: Fine with me 👍🏾
Minors subscribing: Sure, knock yourself out kid. I age-restrict posts as needed, so it'd be fine.
Linking my posts elsewhere: Feel free to, but it'd be nice if you told me about it.
Reposting things I created (not a post, but contents like illustrations or writing): Do not. Please link to the source post or (preferably) my website if you know it's there. You CAN, however, use my illusts as icons or banners or whatever if you credit me.
Who do I subscribe to?: Normally, barely anyone first, because I'm so shy with lots of dead interests. If you sub to me first, I might not sub back until you speak to me. Long story there, but basically: don't be scared to comment, seriously.
What makes me unsub?: Either you started posting a LOT about something I don't care about and we're not close enough for me to feel like I should stick around, or you expressed an opinion so bad I had to pack my bags. You can ask about this.

Currently...As of September 28th, 2026...
Playing: Theoretically Thracia 776, but I keep starting and stopping other random games
Watching: Hikaru no Go
Reading: Nothing :(
Doing: Clothing alterations and general hand-sewing
Fave Song: Bunbunbun by Toromi, maybe?


Feel free to use this entry as a general mailbox, for questions or comments or anything else. You can also private message me if you have a DW account. It's nice to have you around.
elyusion: etna from disgaea (but perhaps blackwashed and with piercings added 🤫) (Default)
I speak for ALL black people when I say...

  1. Learn how to draw curlier hair textures, and do it in the same detail you do straighter hair. If you meticulously draw every strand in straight hair but you draw an afro like a 6-year-old draws a sheep, do better. Make sure you can draw the tightest of curls too. As someone with 4c hair I'm sick of people acting like 3c is the curliest they can depict hair without getting scared.


    You can of course give black characters straight hair, but the people are going to need a reason, even if just implied. For example, if your character is a woman who clearly cares about style, you don't have to explicitly state a reason because one can assume she straightened her hair or is wearing a wig for more style points. But in basically any other situation, a black person having straight hair would be odd. Race, after all, is partly defined by phenotype (appearance, a baseline set of shared features), and part of being what someone would call Black is naturally having very curly or kinky hair. If you don't want your character to have that, make them any other race.


  2. Please, please don't desaturate their skin. If you genuinely have a desaturated art style it's fine, just don't lighten their skin in the process. If you claim to have a desaturated art style but your paler characters have clear pink or yellow tones in their skin, you do not have that art style and you are a liar.


    Look. You know how you can't draw the collar of a kimono going the wrong way because that's not how Japanese people wear them and it instantly looks fucked up to a Japanese person or anyone familiar with the culture? Well, making your black characters gray looks instantly wrong to a black person. Huge cultural taboo to be gray. So it's not just ugly, it's actively breaking a rule we're all taught at a young age (never be caught ashy or you'll get clowned on).


  3. Draw your black character with the same amount of detail you'd draw a character of any other race in their position of the story. For example: Your average anime character doesn't often have very strong facial features. Big eyes, implied nose, just a line for a closed mouth in your average art style. If you have another main character who's black, or a friendly side character you want to be liked around the same amount, you don't have to add more detail than that. You don't have to draw a big nose, full lips... It's fine, really. Usually main characters in anime are Japanese, who also tend to have wide flat noses and kinda? full lips, or white/white-coded, who tend to have big tall noses and thinner lips, but they don't draw those traits on characters because who cares! It's not about being accurate to reality! It's about being cute!!!!!!!!! Characters are only drawn with racialized features (or any strong features at all) when they're not important, the point is their foreigness, or they're not supposed to be attractive. You should apply the same logic to black characters.


    Thusly, any other tip you hear about drawing black people when you're a weeb isn't as important. Wide nose? Big two-toned lips? High cheekbones? Lighter palms and soles? Nope, you don't need to worry about any of that. If you don't usually draw in such detail, you don't have to start now.




Yes, I am the final arbiter of truth and you should take my advice as gospel. Now get out there and draw, dammit.
elyusion: vil from twisted wonderland if he was 2013 tumblr (vil)
No "I don't know what/who you're talking about" options, just don't vote in that case.

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 7


Fire Emblem is getting a(nother) spinoff for home console! What kind of game do you want it to be?

View Answers

Kart racing
1 (14.3%)

Rhythm game
3 (42.9%)

Fighting game
2 (28.6%)

Standard JRPG a la Dragon Quest
1 (14.3%)

Minigame collection
0 (0.0%)



I didn't include "School AU dating simulator played completely straight, with as much strategy as normal FE" because that would obviously sweep.

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 8


If as a child your Other Mother told you you could stay in the utopia she made forever as long as you let your eyes be replaced with buttons, sewing included, would you have said yes?

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Yes, little hesitation
0 (0.0%)

Yes, after some thinking
1 (12.5%)

No, after some thinking
3 (37.5%)

No, little hesitation
4 (50.0%)



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Do you think you could beat Mana(-sama) in a fight?

View Answers

Absolutely
0 (0.0%)

Probably
1 (20.0%)

Maybe?
3 (60.0%)

No
1 (20.0%)

No, for emotional/psychological reasons
0 (0.0%)

elyusion: illust borrowed from https://store.line.me/stickershop/product/1165071/en (happy)
So, as of 3-4 hours ago... I sewed for the first time!

purple cotton cut raggedly and stitched together

In my completely amateur opinion, my seams (top two and bottom left) are pretty darn okay. My hems, however, are terrible. Dogshit. Do not let me hem your stuff. But I'll get there!

TLDR; a few months ago I basically deeply interested in fashion, how to shop, outfit styling, and clothing alteration and creation. A month or two ago I got basic sewing supplies and a few days ago I got basic clothing alteration stuff, so I'm all ready to tear up a bunch of stuff I don't wear anymore to make stuff I will wear. I'm doing my part in reducing, reusing, and recycling ( ^w^)b (Since I didn't create the raw materials I'm still depending on slave labor for those things, but you gotta pick your battles.)

I also patched a hole in a sock I love, but it still looks so raggedy that I'm not showing it <3

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13 hours ago, I did this sorter that decides your top 9 favorite faces in visual kei.

in this order: toshiya, kamijo, kou, mana, wataru shindo, yura-sama, miyavi, yoshiki, masa

This used up so much brain power it took me 10 hours to accomplish anything else.

( Wait I can explain )
elyusion: i hired this stocking to stare at you (stocking)
either a mysterious benefactor gives me a nintendo switch 2 and fire emblem: fortune's weave, a switch 2 emulator drops, or i get back into hetalia. good luck everyone else
elyusion: i hired this stocking to stare at you (stocking)




extremely hurt i had to find out about the chinese hana no kun lunlun sequel with an emo little cat via just happening to be on the tumblr for the first time in 5ever, and an indian magical girl cartoon via just happening to be on twitter for the first time in 5ever

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"why not share this in that one comm" being the only person posting in a comm is EMBARRASSING so im not posting in there until the end of the month, for the winter anime season. which reminds me i need to post in vkotd but i'll do that later ong
elyusion: etna from disgaea (but perhaps blackwashed and with piercings added 🤫) (Default)


whoever drew the promo art for the anime deserves jailtime for that noriko alone (but i bet they were rushed and underpaid. they probably hate it too.)

i couldn't even finish the red river anime it was so bad; i think i'll be skipping the adaptation of my favorite manga ever because i can't stand to see good manga get butchered twice over. why even bother adapting decades old works just for them to look like shit?? just leave them alone =_= and let us not forget about 7 seeds. i guess adapting older shoujo manga, which you don't have to do btw, without cheaping out on the budget is the hardest thing in the world (unless it's hanakimi??????????)

both of them should have just gotten 1-3 episode OVAs released in the mid-to-late 90s, but alas...

i know the manga cover looks not very good for feminism but i swear noriko isn't as unreasonably weak and dependent as you may assume from it

ok hi

Sep. 6th, 2026 03:00 am
elyusion: lalalaalala~ (ladida)
So I'm listening to The Cure's entire discography right now (again, but this time with feeling), but because I'm not currently depressed I can't just lay down and listen to them while doing nothing. I played New Super Mario Bros. for a while but I'm too tired to want to continue, so here I am. Hola.

Saying it here because I can't log it on Backloggd: Lately I've been playing a game on my phone called STYLZ. It's like Fashion Dreamer and Style Savvy together and it has a really really cute bouncy style, it's really nice. Too bad the player base is EVIL and loves to vote for A. really girly outfits that aren't even on theme or B. an overdone outfit over a simple outfit even if the overdone outfit is a mess and the simple one is good and chic.

My votes being fucked up aside, I'm having fun :3 Wow look at my little guy go

It doesn't have a whole lot of clothes yet, but I believe in it... It'll go places... (If you plan on trying it out press this link https://stylz.go.link/ehKl1?referralCode=B027C133&adj_label=B027C133 and run me my money (diamonds). I recommended a friend the game before I knew I could use her for in-game currency and I had her undownload the app and redownload it using my link. Yes I am greedy.)

I kinda fell off on public posting because anything long I have to say I feel too shy to say publicly, and anything short feels more appropriate for a microblogging site, but I should probably get used to making small posts on here. I'm scaring the hoes by only showing long posts openly! They're thinking Dreamwidth is only for the verbose! No no no, I'm just a chatterbox when I have the energy to type. Which I shouldn't have right now. I should be asleep. I'm going to tuck myself in now. Good night ⭐︎
elyusion: *bats eyelashes* (charm)
I genuinely don't remember how to finish a drawing, so I need you 🫵, that's right, you 🫵, the viewer, to hold a gun (the fear of letting someone down) up to my head and make me finish a drawing.

Please give me a character or real person to draw + a pose or an expression or both! I can draw OCs, but I'll need references. (Even if it's a fictional character that doesn't belong to you, or a real person, you might want to send a reference image if you'd prefer a particular look of theirs.) Don't worry about being fashionably late; as long as these images are still up or I haven't explicitly edited this post to say "enough," you can send requests. These are set to autodelete in a month, so that's your time limit.

Even if we're not mutuals you can make a request as a reward for being a Dreamwidth user ^_^ Here's to hoping I draw something!!

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May & June

Jul. 19th, 2026 07:11 pm
elyusion: erm ackshually (nerd)
I almost forgot. ALMOST! I didn't really do much though. In May my old laptop exploded finally, got a new one later but felt tortured in between. Didn't do anything in June but go to a bunch of doctor appointments (which is an accomplishment, calling people is scary but I did that) and get a year older.

One crazy thing though -- on my birthday I saw a car accident happen in front of me and then narrowly avoided being involved in another one. Once I got home I learned my little sister got in a car accident in which the car she was in flipped and she broke both her shoulders. (She's fine if you ignore that she can barely use her arms right now). Then later on in the day my mom got in a car accident too and totaled her car, so I had to go pick her up. What was up with that?

And I got Linux (Fedora) working on the new laptop shortly after getting it, and I don't regret a thing. I switch back to Windows for certain things, but every time I do I quickly get annoyed and remember why I wanted to change operating systems in the first place.

( can someone remind me to write reviews more so i don't have to write 50 in one entry anymore )
elyusion: etna from disgaea (but perhaps blackwashed and with piercings added 🤫) (Default)
So today I had an interview at Store A. I went to bed the night before late and spent a lot of time before leaving the house chilling because I had no hope and no enthusiasm. Last minute I remembered I'm supposed to bring my resume with me, but the printer in the house wouldn't connect to my laptop so I intended to use the local library's printer, but when I finally left the house I realized I had no time to go to the library. I resigned myself to showing up to Store A empty-handed. Maybe saying I don't have access to a printer would be excuse enough?

But that didn't end up mattering, because I arrived a whole 10 minutes late anyways. After thinking hard on how to apologize in a chill but hireable way I walked in, got confused as hell because I had no idea where to go, and then worked up the courage to ask a random employee where the interview was. Eventually a manager came and took me to the office, and she didn't bring up at all my being late nor did I see any other interviewees (wasn't I supposed to be in a group??), but whatever, maybe she's willing to give me a chance and interview me alone so I don't interrupt the ongoing interview.

But she asked me who was supposed to interview me because it sure wasn't her, so I look it up on my phone... My interview was actually at Store B. The store next door that fills the exact same niche. I am stupid. But it's okay! I said, because I totally applied to this store too.

No, I did not. I applied to the Store A in my town, not the one in the next town over (where I was).

BUT EVEN SO! Without an appointment or even an application, she proceeded with the interview. AND!!!!!!! I got hired on the spot!(??????????). I just had to do the application when I got home (which I've done). I was like, no friggin' way, but she seemed quite happy to have stolen a possible employee from the next store over.

Conclusion: Just start walking into stores and lying about having an interview. You're welcome!
elyusion: (silly)
Got my new laptop. Rate my setup y'all:



I got it yesterday, so I can confirm it works great. It feels so good using a computer that doesn't sound like an airplane taking off and doesn't have a crack in the screen, you don't even know.

However, my old laptop... has not turned on since I turned it off to go to work (I got called in right after making my last post, complaining works fr), but I'm going to keep pressing the power button every day until it turns on again, and this time For Real I'm going to transfer all my files and get back to my projects. Either that or I get the money for an SSD/HDD enclosure and loot the damn thing. And then I will put Linux on the SSD since I might as well at that point.

That is all! Bye now~
elyusion: etna from disgaea (but perhaps blackwashed and with piercings added 🤫) (Default)
Two weeks ago my laptop died horribly and in agony, which threw off my entire routine and life. I do not like being locked to the small screen, especially for important decisions. But today ol' Lappy decided resurrection would be a good idea, so I have a PC again! A very temperamental one, so I need to focus on copying files to move them to a new laptop at some point. It's only been 2 weeks, but it feels like a month... and before my laptop fake-died I was really focused on making a website for a specific purpose I can't say publicly, so that's why I've barely been on Dreamwidth specifically. Hi everypony :3
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elyusion: orange tabby cat wearing headphones, screaming (actually probably yawning) (music)




Does anyone know if there's a secret third cover by a Japanese group to complete the trifecta? And if they're all covering some overseas song that I haven't heard before but will stumble into a few months or years down the line (100000 such cases)?

*May 29th edit because I entirely forgot to mention: I did learn, however, that the opening sample is from You Don't Love Me (No No No) by Dawn Penn.
...
I felt suspicious that that too was a sample, so I looked into it. That Dawn Penn song's opening is actually sampling Wake the Town by U-Roy, so who knows which one those later songs were using as a reference.*
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elyusion: lord forgive me (addiction)
i'm here, i'm alive, i just got fixated on something halfway through 3w4dw. please give me a moment (several days or maybe weeks lol)
elyusion: Um... well... bwehhh (bwehh)
but this entry isn't about that.

can someone who is in [community profile] vkotd tell me if next week's challenge should be "I Can't Believe It's Not VKei" or some other thing i dont have a name for yet, but it's sharing songs that you think are classics or hits or whatever you're withholding because you think you won't look cool with unique superior music taste for sharing it?

i think sharing things that aren't vk but could be if you're working with a very faulty definition is funny, but on the other hand i could see someone getting irked that they subbed to a vkei comm and theyre not getting vkei, even if temporarily. but the funny.....

if the funny wins then the classics challenge can happen later, but if funny loses then i'm not sure if i'll ever just run it later 😓 since it's a little off-topic
elyusion: (peek)
eMpTyVeeTV - "Music videos from the bleeding edge, our VJs host a variety of goth / industrial / darkwave / steampunk / synthpop / dark alternative music of all descriptions!" They do a stream every Wednesday at 5pm EST and a replay on Sundays at noon of submitted music videos. MTV for strange people.

Extra Song 2 (Animal Crossing New Horizons) - K.K. City Pop just dropped (or rather, will drop in the next AC game).

La'Cryma Christi are now available for streaming, I say, 7 months late and having already downloaded all their songs years ago anyways. But go show them some love if you can!! If you've never listened to them, may I humbly recommend Forest, Henseifuu, and With You?

Not a song, but an interview with Lucifer and Mana (GILLE' LOVES and Malice Mizer, respectively), which I first read a very long time ago and sought out again not-so-long ago because it really does mean everything to me. I would share it to a general vkei community if we had one. *manifesting*

And then for some reason I have a bunch of Gakupo songs saved? I would delete them all, but clearly the me of August 20, 2025 really really wanted to show you all this, so I'll honor his wishes even if I don't understand them.
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April

May. 3rd, 2026 04:40 pm
elyusion: (*sucks thumb peacefully*)
April 👍🏾

I forgot to say anything here, but I got my driver's license!! My life hasn't done a 180 or anything because I don't like driving, but it's all about the baby steps. I was scared to even pull out my parking spot alone, and now I can at least take multiple ways to work (5 minutes away btw) and back home without freaking out. I'm getting there.

I have officially been job hunting for 2 months with no luck and I have to start paying my student loan debt next month, so that's cool.

That stupid dress-up game I'd be swearing up and down I'd finish? I gave up on it. I couldn't take it anymore. BUT! I did finish it. In the sense that I gathered up what I did for it and published it online. So if you have a minute or two to waste, you can play the game that took me 5 months of picking up and putting down programs to make too. At least I can rest assured that if I ever wanted to make another one it won't take even half as long because I know what I'm doing now. :')

All the goals I publicly mentioned in last month's post, 1. drive myself to work, 2. not use any ad-funded or data-stealing socmeds, 3. not sleep next to my phone, and 4. get a good grade in 3W4DW, were met. Huzzah. #4 is subjective, but I definitely haven't failed so far, so I'm counting that goal as met.

( Art Enjoyed )

My May goals are much simpler:

  1. Get a new/nother job for real this time (this one isn't entirely up to me)

  2. 2+ new chapters up of fanTL

  3. clean out old emails


because I need to relax. I need more free time so I can consume more media enjoy more art. There's so many novels, comics, games, albums, movies I need to be enjoying -- and that's not even getting into the studies I need to be doing. I feel like I'm really busy for someone who does fuck all.
elyusion: profile of woman with an updo, kimono, and folding fan (japan)
courtesy of [community profile] thefridayfive

1. Do you like to spend time outdoors?
はい、外の空気は気持ちいいね

2. What is your favorite flower?
ハイビスカスかアザレアかわからないんだ

3. Any favorite warm weather activities?
ポーチでロッキングチェアに座って日向ぼっこする

4. Have you ever kept a garden? If so, what did you grow?
いいえ、植物を触る度にすぐ死ぬ。

5. Do you know how to swim?
いいえ😔 でも海好きだ

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elyusion: Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (3w4dw)
I'm probablyyyy done for the day, sooo...
For the event I also have to do Community Thursday every Thursday. It'd be nice if I could do it all year, huh?

I posted (and probably commented at some point) in...
[community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth - Recc Songs For Points
[community profile] fandom_on_dw - New Girly Japanese(ish) Fiction Community: Joseimuke
[community profile] beautifulmechanical - Paralyzed by Sleep Theory, as part of sharing music I discovered through Dreamwidth
[community profile] language_learning - For Japanese Learners..., which just links to an old entry I cleaned up a bit
[community profile] smallweb - Imageboards for the Layman (if anyone knows how I can make an imageboard without installing Docker or some shit, I'm taking all possible suggestions)

I commented (but didn't post) in...
[community profile] frillsofjustice
[community profile] fire_emblem
[community profile] vampiremedia
[community profile] drawesome

You should also check out...
[community profile] gifs_at_dw - I'm not a member or subscriber or anything but I do miss GIFs. Get GIF'ing bud.

And of course I posted and commented in [community profile] vkotd and [community profile] joseimuke; those are my comms ~_~; I wonder if I have to mention them every Thursday too. It kind of feels like attention-seeking... I'd hate for anyone who would want to join to not know they exist, but I don't want to continually bring them up to people who don't gaf either. You know how it is.
elyusion: erm ackshually (nerd)
I really need an icon related to gaming.

Give me more of your unpopular weirdos, classic game publishers
We can’t have an honest conversation about the great games we’re “supposed” to know and love if we don’t have an accurate idea of the average to compare them to. We can’t give the classics an authentic appraisal if we can’t actually see how they do things differently from the more ordinary examples they sat next to on shop shelves, or we end up assuming that creating an engaging 16-bit RPG must be easy because everything we collectively choose to revisit and elevate from that era managed it.

Throwing bouquets for this piece 💐💐💐

How the Religious Right Censor Morally Objectionable Content to Target Queer and Adult Media
But the playbook is practically the same: choose a game that is deeply morally objectionable and that very few people will defend in public, and stir up controversy over it. Soon, businesses that fear they might not comply with the rules will follow suit. Many well-intentioned people would then create petitions and organize movements against the game, which would create a chilling effect for future companies.

This is all a religious crusade from the very beginning, and I think many people played into it without realizing it.

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