(//_-) ← emo bang

Typing this while wearing one of those coats that make me look like the Michelin Man. I'm gonna make a different post for all of 2025 and my plans for 2026. As you can see, I'm running out of entry title ideas.

What I Did

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What I'm Doing

• The Snowflake Challenge :P


• Nailing A1 Spanish and N5 (pretty much the same as A1) Japanese. Just making sure I have everything down, you know? For the record, going by the practice exams on the JLPT site, I could pass the N3 one with ease and the N2 one with a struggle. (In non-JLPT terms, I'm approaching C1 steadily. In non-overly-concerned-with-language-rubrics terms, I'm approaching an advanced level of Japanese.) My Spanish, however, is stuck in B2/"usually knows what someone is talking about, at least"-level right now.


• I'm probably going to spend all month trying to finish Kamisama Kiss. God I wish I read Japanese as fast as I read English.


• I'm playing Sakura Taisen, which I am really enjoying so far.


• Last month I listened to songs popular in Japan, China, and Mexico. So, I know what people there generally like. This month is dedicated to listening to Japanese, Chinese (any kind), and Spanish music specifically from genres I know I like. If you have Chinese music reccs please let me know -- I'm looking for songs, albums, or an artist who isn't always making slow acoustic songs. China (and other places in the Sinosphere; I can't hear the language differences) has so much slow acoustic music. An artist will look so edgy but the song will still be slow acoustic music. Somebody please save me. (For your reference.)

What I Will Do

• The movies for this month are: Swing Girls, Soy Cuba, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, and 2001: A Space Odyssey. I'm going to watch Swing Girls right after I post this entry, actually.


• I need to continue my fan translation, but the storage in my laptop is so low that Photoshop has been rendered nonfunctional. So. Uh. I'll at least try to translate more chapters even if I can't edit them onto the pages this month...


• Not giving details, but if I don't drop a game this month or the next please PLEASE jump me.


• I'm supposed to start dancing and voice training this month, so we'll see how that goes.


• If I beat Sakura Taisen this month, next in line is Love Curse: Find Your Soulmate, and then Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow. Usually I play one PC game and one handheld game at the same time, but right now my before-sleep activity is reading Kamisama Kiss, so no bedtime handheld gaming for me. (<- person who brings laptop to bed to play more Sakura Taisen)

So last Tuesday I went to a place I applied to to woo them with my beautiful face. That's how I got my last job, I assume, so I figured it would be to my advantage if I tried it again. When it comes to jobs I'm comfortable working I'm kind of limited, and out of the jobs I applied to this place was by far my preferred choice, so I was just a little desperate to have them hire me.

On the way there was this guy at a stand selling (faux? p?)leather bracelets with spaces for snap buttons. He told us to check out his stuff when we circle back, and I really wanted to avoid him because I'm your typical antisocial zoomer, but his booth was riiight outside the store I was going to. So I had no choice but to check his wares when I left. In the end I ended up telling him that I'm broke and actually came her to check on an application... and he let me pick out a bracelet and 3 buttons for free. What the flip. So in that moment I actually became indebted to him and swore I'd buy something from him if I get the job. (This man, by the way, who wore a head band with a feather standing tall in the middle, said he loved that I wore my hair natural and told me to pray to the ancestors for help in getting the job, in case you need to vibe check him.)
( This post has pictures!!!! Rare long public post about my life )

of 2025! Who's excited for 2026!? (Not me, the way things are going!)

What I've Done
- On the very last day of August, instead of doing anything I was supposed to, I rewatched the entire first half of Dororo 2019.

I was editing my favorite stuff on Anilist because I don't know if something is truly my "favorite" if I'm not weird and obsessive about it, so with that strict standard in mind I took Hyakkimaru off my favorite characters... but then I felt a little bad and felt compelled to watch just a little of Dororo again to check how I feel. I really did miss Hyakkimaru and Dororo... but I'm not absolutely deranged about them, so...? I know most people don't feel the intensity I do when I like something a little too much about anything, so I don't know if I'm doing this "favorites" thing right... On Backloggd too I ended up trimming my favorite games from 5 to 3, even though there's many games I think are really good and can play all day if time permits. Can I really call them a "favorite" if thinking about them doesn't make me want to chew on bricks? I don't know if this paragraph makes sense.

- Where I left off in Dragon Ball is the episode just before the start of the tournament, which I think is where people say Dragon Ball gets good. I thought the tournament arc of Naruto was booboo, so I'm wary, but maybe I should trust the fans. Yamcha's haircut made me have to pause, but it's cute in the sense that it makes him look about 10 years old <3 I hope Roshi dies

- I watched a bunch of episodes of Everyday Host with wintermintly, and ever since we caught up I've been watching the new episodes alone, unsubbed, as Japanese practice. It has a nice style and it's funny. I want to go to a host club, but I don't really want to get drunk, but getting me drunk is the hosts' raison d'etre, so I guess I'll stick to my dream of going to a maid cafe.

- Still watching Panty and Stocking. The blowjob brothers' transformation was great! I would have liked to see them outside of the transformation in their magical boy outfits. But who cares *pushes those fruitcakes out the way* The group animation for the girls was 🤤 And earlier I was complaining that the girls haven't transformed or worn their transformation outfits in a while. They didn't forget after all! They got upgrades! They got new transformations! They got Kneesocks coochie!!!!!!!!!! (I am writing this from the point of view from someone who hasn't seen any episodes released during September. You will see my thoughts on episode 9 later...)

- I also started watching Kino no Tabi/Kino's Journey with a friend who ISN'T Mikki. Yea, I have other friends. It's so, so, so brown. So 2000s in that way. But even so, it's really really good and it deserves the high ratings. I wish I had something smart to say about it. Kino is a better person than me. Kill all adults.

- I beat Order of Ecclesia! I wish I wasn't gamemaxxing so I could have fun with the post-completion game modes and replay it a little and stuff. I didn't even finish all the villager requests. It was really fun, but sadly with the backlog and wishlist I have there's no time to stop and smell the roses... I really did miss Castlevania. It's so good. <- Something I can only say when not actively playing, because when I am it's the most frustrating series ever and everyone involved in its creation should bow and apologize to me.

- I got through my first day of school, and my classes are all... REALLY easy? I'm in an English class about Black vampires, which is 2000-level so I look like a genius (I've never taken an English class that's 3000+ because I'm literally that ogre meme and I know I won't look like a genius anymore), a Japanese class where I already know everything, and another Japanese "class" where really I'm just teacher's assistant for an intermediate-level class. Looks like my final semester might be a breeze. I've never had a semester so easy. It's kind of scary idk

- I redownloaded NU: Carnival for the newest Edmond. The download didn't even take that long this time, so I guess I'm going back to being a regular player. (I have a lot to say about the event and Edmond, but it's access-locked due to the nature of Nucani. If we're mutuals, don't be afraid to ask for access 🥺)

- wintermintly had me download Parsec so that I could control her computer from far away, but more specifically so I could play local multiplayer games like I was there. I had my doubts, but it usually worked with zero noticeable lag even for racing and fighting games. Technology is crazy. We played Itadaki Street Special (what if Monopoly was even more evil?), Melee, Brawl, Double Dash, Ehrgeiz, and Ultimate Ninja Storm 2. Dragon Ball Fighterz soon 💪🏾🔥

- This and the next point are written on Aug. 9 because I forgot two things: One, I watched Nezha 2! There are some jokes that are very shocking in the sense that they are violently for small children who love potty and gross-out humor, but besides that, great movie. Really great movie. Who up filialing they piety. You should watch it as a send-off to Chinese Summer 2025 (although I feel we may be entering Chinese Fall... where tf is The Legend of Hei 2 subbed in English btw).

- My cough, which has been off-and-on since winter 2019, is back. I'd like to say it comes for 2 or 3 months, leaves for 2 or 3 months, and returns again in that cycle.

- Of course, I'm still watching Shippuden too.

I will try to be brief (1/435)

• Naruto having a legitimate panic attack and passing out upon finding out Sasuke is a terrorist is going down as one of my top 10 favorite yaoi moments in history.


• I dunno if I said this before, but it's crazy Naruto has a whole village full of black people and no one told me.


• OH YEAH, you know how I said I thought Sakura was going to reaffirm her love for Sasuke and friendzone Naruto? No, the opposite happened. She said she loved Naruto to get him to give up. Everyone in the comments hated her for this, and even Mikki said it was fucked up. I disagree. Or, at least, I see where Sakura's coming from. She cares Naruto, so she wants him to give up on Sasuke and heal and stuff. Sasuke's clearly a lost cause. And she was so willing to save Naruto that she'd sacrifice her future and enter a loveless (well there'd be platonic love) marriage and whatever for it <333 But nooooo everyone hates women so much. Sakura has done fuck all (except use her ultimate jutsu which summons Naruto lol) recently but let me support her in this.


• Was Sasuke kind of sigma for almost killing Karin and calling her useless (when she saved his ass twice)? Discuss.


• So you know how I said that I heard Sasuke never wins a fight? Well EYE think he won the Danzo one, yet Mik insists he did not because Danzo killed himself. I think cornering an opponent so bad that they feel they must kill themself is a dub. Sure, okay, maybe not a CLEAN dub, but a dub is a dub. I may or may not just be desperate to say he won and isn't a complete fraud.


• I wish they showed Sasuke getting his eyes replaced a little 💔 Gore of my Sasuke please?


• Oh yeah, I also don't hate Sakura going to try to stop Sasuke herself, but it just feels odd after she's done nothing for so long. It felt shoed in, just like Hinata trying to save Naruto during the Pain arc. Like, to lend more credence to their future marriage, I guess? But Naruto is such a show about relationships/love between men that I... I mean, Naruto has it's own unique world so I'd feel crazy saying maybe it just shouldn't have female characters, but they're all so... I dunno, maybe this should go in a different post. The series' themes, to me, just don't include women, so whenever women are relevant suddenly it feels so ??????? With the exception of Tsunade stuff. Hi Tsunade. Ultimately this is just a Kishimoto skill/interest issue, and I wouldn't feel this way if he put more effort into making them as unique and cool as the guys.



• Leave him alone???????????????????????? 😭😭😭


• I'm going to be so honest and say I kinda felt something in my eyeballs when Naruto was giving that speech to Sasuke about how they're friends and their destines are tied up with each others' and how it'd be nice if they were born without any baggage holding them back from being regular friends and how they're going to kill each other/die at the same time. Now I'm a little scared of what the future holds because I know if I see them fist bump, especially if it echoes that in the first opening, I'm going to sob like a little baby. The NaruSasu has officially got me guys............ I tried to stay strong, I really die................


• And then Naruto (the show, not the guy) got me again, because the episode that ended with Killer Bee rapping about being friends with that guy also did something to my eyeballs. I didn't cry though. But I almost got got. And I was mad because it was Killer Bee, awful rapper, and some guy I barely knew. Almost had me crying over someone I barely knew... I will study Naruto writing soon.


• Naruto (the guy) is also good in this new arc. It's cute how he raps to bond with Killer Bee. It's funnycute that he can't tell the difference between an octopus and squid and has to manually count the tentacles each time, and it's funnycute he tried to Talk no Jutsu the squid because he thought it was Killer Bee crashing out. He's getting to me guys.... He's normally not the kind of character I like...... I even think he's rather handsome sometimes too. What is this show doing to me man T_T It's getting scary out here!!


• I'm glad that whole "village suddenly being nice to Naruto" thing is being addressed, because I said at the end of the Pain arc that if I was Naruto and all these bullies were suddenly treating me with respect and kindness and love, that would ironically be my final straw and I'd attack them. Naruto is a better man than me.

What I'm Doing
- Small Web September smallweb :3 My goal is officially to make at least 3 shrines for my site, and the last week will be spent either on a fourth shrine orrrrr my fansite. We shall see what I decide on. I'm having a lot of fun so far! I have to hold back from not just working on the site all day every day. I wish I could feel that way about drawing again, haha. (sigh.) Anyways, at the very least, I want to have at least 2 shrines done. That's my bare-minimum goal. 3 shrines and a fansite/4 shrines is my ideal-situation goal.

- I'm still thinking about game jams and NaNoMangO, but I won't say if I'll actually be doing anything or not. I'm just thinking about them.

- The 10th will mark one year of me using Dreamwidth for real, although the post I made that day is private so no one can see it but me. That means it'll have been one year since Cohost announced it was going to shut down. That post was about how chapter 2 of Cirrus' route in Obscura, known VN, made me feel, as at that time it was recently-released. I could make a post about Cohost and how it changed me, but... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

What I Will Do
- On God I'm going to beat Final Fantasy IV 3D today or tomorrow. I swear. And then I'll play The Legend of Zelda (1986), and then back to Harukanaru Toki no Naka de 2. That's my game plans for this month. I doubt I'll beat Haruka2 before the end of the month, but in case it gets really really good and I do, then I'm playing Sakura Wars after that :D

- I'm suddenly moving very soon to a state even deeper South with less rights, which is where my family is from, so that's exciting. I still have yet to make the post explaining why. The lore runs deep... It's the middle of Small Web September so I'm fixated on web design right now, plus I still have school, so finding the time to pack and all is kind of stressing me out. I might not move at all, but I hope I do. I really need to leave this house.

That's all for now. See you later :-]

It's a bunch of stuff I've written in Spanish and Japanese for practice. A lot of these are from the same set of questions where I alternated which language I answered in for each one, so they seem (and are!) interconnected -- but for ease of reading, I separated them by language rather than chronological order.

Semi-irrelevant, but concerning the title of this entry among other things: I know the difference in standard English between was and were. But I don't like it. My dialect barely ever using "were" just sounds better to me, so don't bother correcting me on this... or much else regarding English grammar, unless you're a genuine AAVE speaker and know for sure I made a mistake. You should totally correct my Spanish and Japanese though!
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1. after watching kids stare at the sports channel blankly and then go do something else after i hand them the tv remote, i have finally realized that these newgens have no concept of channelsurfing; possibly no concept of tv channels in general. she took the netflix in the divorce tho so i'm pretty sure no one in this house has a sub to any streaming service (made this meme immediately after typing that. you're welcome)

2. i think youtube is the reason this kid narrates and reacts to everything she does while playing games.... damned streamers... i dont know how common it is since this is the only kid i watch that's old enough to play video games. it's irking me bad but i know it's normal to her 💔 telling her to be quiet would probably be like telling her to stop her heart from beating 💔💔

I got back from (the) Seattle (area) yesterday. Time flies!
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Inspired by this guy's videos, here is what I eat on a day with plenty of food in the house.

Breakfast: bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch + blueberry bagel straight out the bag, no topping no toast no nothing. no beverage because I drink the milk from the cereal 😋

Lunch: microwavable personal pan cheese pizza with ice water or fruit soda

Snack: 2~5 slices of honey wheat/cinnamon swirl bread with milk or ice water

Dinner: chicken sandwich, fries, fruit juice/soda

Snack 2: entire family size bag of salt and vinegar Lay's chips, ice water
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& El Camino.

I end up not making the entries I could because I worry too much about them making perfect sense and looking nice, so I want to just get this one out while it's fresh in my mind even if it's not the best writing.

It seems a lot of people cried at multiple points in Breaking Bad. And it seems the writers took into account the empathy of viewers and avoided making the show sadder than they could have at multiple points. And it seems the actors sometimes had a hard time doing their roles because a certain scene or other was too heavy, although none of this is real. Even in the show, people had reactions to things that I don't understand.

I don't understand why Marie or Walter Jr. reacted to the truth that way. I feel like if I was Marie I would've felt bad for Skyler, because the secret she had to bear for who-knows-how-long was surely hard, and I would've assumed she was purely a victim too. If I was Walter Jr. and my aunt and mother told me my dad is a drug lord, I would say "Oh. Wow. That's... that's crazy," and ask if I would be in trouble if/when he gets caught. After I'm told I'm good, I'd be like "Oh, okay. Cool. ...... So...." Maybe I'm kqueeng of not giving a shit, who knows. I definitely wouldn't have turned down that money if it was guaranteed I wouldn't be in trouble for using it.

This kind of situation, where other people react to things in such a way that I think they're overreacting, happens to me a lot. But if everyone else is acting the same way, I'm likely just underreacting. Sometimes I feel like there's a wall between me and my feelings, or like I wasn't ensouled at birth, but there are also times where I have an incredibly emotional reaction to some shit no one else is affected by, so it's more like my brain decides on a case-by-case basis whichever is more inappropriate and acts that way. Thanks brain.

Unrelated story time: A few years ago, although it feels like decades now, my sister graduated from high school. After the graduation we (mom, dad, me, sister, brother) got into the car -- kind of in a rush, because it was windy and unexpectedly cold for late May. No one said anything. My mom out of the blue said "No reactions? No crying? Hugging? Nothing?" and we three stared at her from the back blankly and did various shrugs. She laughed and said "Damn, I raised some cold-ass niggas," and shifted gears to take us straight home.

Well, I'll see you all later. ⭐

I know because of the reasons I use this site I should make posts about my life that can be shared publicly, but my life is generally boring and consists mainly of being a prisoner in my own home, so I can't think of what to say very often. But I have something right now.

Last Friday I got my hair done. If you didn't know, when you're done having your hair braided (into box braids... I've never seen it done to cornrows personally, at least) sometimes to seal the ends the person doing your hair will hold a lighter or lit match near the ends of your hair, or dip the ends in boiling water.

While she was finishing up, my stylist was talking about how she had an assistant (who is also her friend) once spilled boiling water all over a customer's chest. The poor woman had to get surgery and everything. Never came back again. Was super disappointed; neither the customer nor my stylist could believe her friend was that clumsy.

Right after telling that story, she spilled boiling water on my shoulder.

I didn't want to embarrass her after she just finished talking mad shit about her friend, so I kept a straight face. However, when I started to remove the side of my jacket that had hot water on it, my dad's girlfriend (long story there btw) who had come to get me was like "don't be scared, you're alright" and the stylist said "don't worry, I would never burn you! ^_^" while I was actively burning. So I just sat there and let the pain happen ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Luckily I was wearing a jacket so I didn't actually get a burn, but it was hot as hell.

...

Oh shit, my alarm to get up and get ready for school is gonna go off in 5 minutes. I wanted to take a nap before it rings (/_-)

As I write this, white snow coats the southern U.S.......... but it's not very thick at all, not where I am. I'm unimpressed, to be frank. The winter storm 10 years ago was more impressive. But still, snow is very pretty. Would hate to live somewhere that has it all time! LOL

I'm writing this a little before 7 am, but I'm going to hold out on finishing it until the sun comes out... by then it'll be done snowing, and I want to attach a picture of our weaksauce snow.

07:42 A.M.
Concerned about metadata, I pulled out my old digital camera to take photos of the snow, but the battery is dead and I can't find the charger. I don't think I even still have it. I have a feeling my dad threw it out when I lived in a college dorm. So I used my 3DS.

But then I worried a weirdo could identify my location from the photos, so I censored the houses... haha. The photos I took with my phone look much prettier, nearly unreal - shame I can't share them publicly. If I had a car I could drive somewhere else for photos, but that would require stepping foot on the raw snow, and a large part of its beauty is that it's untouched.

Going to be honest, I touched it a little bit. I dug my finger into it to see how deep it is. I'd say it's ~1.5 inches, about the same as the last storm.

 

[02/10/2025, 1:14 P.M.: microblog repost]