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I forgot to say anything here, but I got my driver's license!! My life hasn't done a 180 or anything because I don't like driving, but it's all about the baby steps. I was scared to even pull out my parking spot alone, and now I can at least take multiple ways to work (5 minutes away btw) and back home without freaking out. I'm getting there.
I have officially been job hunting for 2 months with no luck and I have to start paying my student loan debt next month, so that's cool.
That stupid dress-up game I'd be swearing up and down I'd finish? I gave up on it. I couldn't take it anymore. BUT! I did finish it. In the sense that I gathered up what I did for it and published it online. So if you have a minute or two to waste, you can play the game that took me 5 months of picking up and putting down programs to make too. At least I can rest assured that if I ever wanted to make another one it won't take even half as long because I know what I'm doing now. :')
All the goals I publicly mentioned in last month's post, 1. drive myself to work, 2. not use any ad-funded or data-stealing socmeds, 3. not sleep next to my phone, and 4. get a good grade in 3W4DW, were met. Huzzah. #4 is subjective, but I definitely haven't failed so far, so I'm counting that goal as met.
I had the game halfway beat already, but I put it off for ~5 years because...??? Many such cases with me. After beating it I have concluded that it's Fine. But it's no Order of Ecclesia. It'd be fun to replay the game in the other mode. I always think that about Castlevanias... I'd love to replay them... But I can't. Because life is finite and I have to enjoy as many things I suspect I'll like as possible. Moving on,
On God I will write a standalone entry about Sailor Moon. I don't want my feelings towards it to languish in these month-summary entries no one reads in their entirety. But to be brief: 6/10.
It was very much Vibes. It was pretty, and I could have hung around in this world longer than the OVA allowed me too. But I'd have to give it another watch to be able to explain the plot better. Not going to lie, I mainly watched this so I could watch the crossover OVA it has with Mahoutsukai Tai (an OVA that is near and dear to my heart), but the series aren't alike at all and the crossover wasn't good enough to justify watching some mid series to better understand it. Luckily, Shamanic Princess wasn't mid (carried by the visuals though it may be). Also 6/10.
I rated this as highly as I could for something that I only recently finished. See, I know that when I'm just coming off the high of something I might rate it higher than I feel it deserves later down the line, so these days I reserve 9 and 10/10 ratings for things where months, years later I still get that high when I think about them. It was really beautiful, well-paced, thrilling, romantic without overstating it... I have to get around to reading The Count of Monte Christo now too. I heard that despite how good the anime is, the book's ending is better. You know what definitely couldn't beat the book's ending, though? The actual ending sequence for the show. I wish I could say I never skipped it, but instead I went 80% of the show without skipping it before my need to know what happens next overpowered my need to watch the ending every time x_x
I need to read A Clash of Kings too fuckkkkkkkk
I keep thinking "I need to know what happens to Ned next," but I know he's dead and there's no "next" for him. But what if?
Apparently, GOT was first popular in the mid-10s. I did not know this. I swear I never heard of it until a few years ago. It sounded a little up my alley, and my mom owns a boxset of the first five books, so I decided to give it a whirl. FE4 fan likes GOT, fork found in kitchen, whatever.
The way the author writes Danny makes me uncomfortable sometimes, but I really care about her. But not just her, my favorite protags are Ned's daughters too. And uh... *trying to think of a boy whose name doesn't make me groan when I see it at the start of a chapter* uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Ned :)
I have too many books in my book backlog -_-
overhyped MID
is what I would say if I wanted to start an argument. In reality, I can see how it's widely considered a good movie, but it's not my kind of movie. As I watch more movies, I'm starting to see now that just because a movie is considered good doesn't mean I'll like it. That seems obvious, but I don't know, I just thought that such movies would touch anyone no matter what, but no. I don't like plain action movies. I looooove action, but it must be within other genres for me to care. I wished to get to know the characters more, but it wasn't that kind of movie. I liked Harakiri much more.
It was good.
...
...
... No really, that's all I can think of to say. It does some crazy things with the editing and camera, but overall I was just like: good movie. Yet another situation where I wonder if I'm missing out on some emotional stuff by focusing too hard on the language and not the movie itself. (I watched this in Spanish with Spanish subtitles, but usually when watching Japanese stuff I watch them with English subtitles because I'm too lazy to find hard-to-find Japanese subs and I know if I watch them with no subs either I won't understand anything at all.)
Despite how many hours I have in it, I realized a while back the game has a main story and that I never beat. Well, I finally took care of that! Which means finally, finallyfinallyfinally, I unlocked being able to change how the player character looks. I've grown tired of the narrow eyes I gave my character for so long -- I felt they ruined more cute looks (same as I feel about my face in real life). I also gave myself a :3 mouth. I have to share pictures one day.
With a hack I could also play as a male character now, but *looks at the male wardrobe* I'm not really missing out on much by staying a girl...
I'm too lazy to prove it, but I feel like Trendsetters has more male clothing. I haven't played Trendsetters in years and years. I could be very wrong. But the male clothes in Styling Star only make me feel disappointed, but when I saw them in Trendsetters I was like holy shittttttt, so idk if Styling Star cut back on how many there are or if I only felt amazed by the selection in Trendsetters because previously we had 0.
I watched this whole thing via FaceTime camera.
Felt like an abridged version of a longer and much better TV show :( It was cute and funny, but the plot was like... it should've been slower and took it's time with some things, but it couldn't because it's a movie. I weep for the TV program or comic book it should have been.
Technically I finished this past midnight of March 1st but idgaf.
I liked it. I may have spent more time focusing on how structured and quality the clothes were back then than what I was supposed to be focusing on, but I liked it. I want to believe that the ending of the movie shows it was all a mistake and they gave up what they had because they were too focused on how things should be according to tradition, but not everyone saw it that way. Hard watch if you have problems with your dad and can't stop projecting btw.
by Bonnie Garmus
Almost forgot about this -- I checked it out from the library because it's the reading they're doing at the bilingual book club in this one library, and I wanted to join in on that. I usually read nonfiction because it's easy to pick a new nonfiction book: just find a topic I like and choose whatever is written the least boring. With fiction I don't know how to know if I'll like any random book or not. Well after spending years thinking I need to slowly regain my attention span by reading a few pages a day and then a chapter a day, etc etc, I read this entire book in one sitting when I had planned to only read a little and pass out. And it wasn't even an amazing book. It was like, okay. I suppose it had a way of keeping you on your toes though. But yea: I still got it (the ability to read hundreds of pages in a few hours).
My May goals are much simpler:
because I need to relax. I need more free time so I canconsume more media enjoy more art. There's so many novels, comics, games, albums, movies I need to be enjoying -- and that's not even getting into the studies I need to be doing. I feel like I'm really busy for someone who does fuck all.
I forgot to say anything here, but I got my driver's license!! My life hasn't done a 180 or anything because I don't like driving, but it's all about the baby steps. I was scared to even pull out my parking spot alone, and now I can at least take multiple ways to work (5 minutes away btw) and back home without freaking out. I'm getting there.
I have officially been job hunting for 2 months with no luck and I have to start paying my student loan debt next month, so that's cool.
That stupid dress-up game I'd be swearing up and down I'd finish? I gave up on it. I couldn't take it anymore. BUT! I did finish it. In the sense that I gathered up what I did for it and published it online. So if you have a minute or two to waste, you can play the game that took me 5 months of picking up and putting down programs to make too. At least I can rest assured that if I ever wanted to make another one it won't take even half as long because I know what I'm doing now. :')
All the goals I publicly mentioned in last month's post, 1. drive myself to work, 2. not use any ad-funded or data-stealing socmeds, 3. not sleep next to my phone, and 4. get a good grade in 3W4DW, were met. Huzzah. #4 is subjective, but I definitely haven't failed so far, so I'm counting that goal as met.
Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow
I had the game halfway beat already, but I put it off for ~5 years because...??? Many such cases with me. After beating it I have concluded that it's Fine. But it's no Order of Ecclesia. It'd be fun to replay the game in the other mode. I always think that about Castlevanias... I'd love to replay them... But I can't. Because life is finite and I have to enjoy as many things I suspect I'll like as possible. Moving on,
Sailor Moon
On God I will write a standalone entry about Sailor Moon. I don't want my feelings towards it to languish in these month-summary entries no one reads in their entirety. But to be brief: 6/10.
Shamanic Princess
It was very much Vibes. It was pretty, and I could have hung around in this world longer than the OVA allowed me too. But I'd have to give it another watch to be able to explain the plot better. Not going to lie, I mainly watched this so I could watch the crossover OVA it has with Mahoutsukai Tai (an OVA that is near and dear to my heart), but the series aren't alike at all and the crossover wasn't good enough to justify watching some mid series to better understand it. Luckily, Shamanic Princess wasn't mid (carried by the visuals though it may be). Also 6/10.
Gankutsuou
I rated this as highly as I could for something that I only recently finished. See, I know that when I'm just coming off the high of something I might rate it higher than I feel it deserves later down the line, so these days I reserve 9 and 10/10 ratings for things where months, years later I still get that high when I think about them. It was really beautiful, well-paced, thrilling, romantic without overstating it... I have to get around to reading The Count of Monte Christo now too. I heard that despite how good the anime is, the book's ending is better. You know what definitely couldn't beat the book's ending, though? The actual ending sequence for the show. I wish I could say I never skipped it, but instead I went 80% of the show without skipping it before my need to know what happens next overpowered my need to watch the ending every time x_x
A Game of Thrones
I need to read A Clash of Kings too fuckkkkkkkk
I keep thinking "I need to know what happens to Ned next," but I know he's dead and there's no "next" for him. But what if?
Apparently, GOT was first popular in the mid-10s. I did not know this. I swear I never heard of it until a few years ago. It sounded a little up my alley, and my mom owns a boxset of the first five books, so I decided to give it a whirl. FE4 fan likes GOT, fork found in kitchen, whatever.
The way the author writes Danny makes me uncomfortable sometimes, but I really care about her. But not just her, my favorite protags are Ned's daughters too. And uh... *trying to think of a boy whose name doesn't make me groan when I see it at the start of a chapter* uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Ned :)
I have too many books in my book backlog -_-
Seven Samurai
overhyped MID
is what I would say if I wanted to start an argument. In reality, I can see how it's widely considered a good movie, but it's not my kind of movie. As I watch more movies, I'm starting to see now that just because a movie is considered good doesn't mean I'll like it. That seems obvious, but I don't know, I just thought that such movies would touch anyone no matter what, but no. I don't like plain action movies. I looooove action, but it must be within other genres for me to care. I wished to get to know the characters more, but it wasn't that kind of movie. I liked Harakiri much more.
Los Olvidados
It was good.
...
...
... No really, that's all I can think of to say. It does some crazy things with the editing and camera, but overall I was just like: good movie. Yet another situation where I wonder if I'm missing out on some emotional stuff by focusing too hard on the language and not the movie itself. (I watched this in Spanish with Spanish subtitles, but usually when watching Japanese stuff I watch them with English subtitles because I'm too lazy to find hard-to-find Japanese subs and I know if I watch them with no subs either I won't understand anything at all.)
Style Savvy: Styling Star
Despite how many hours I have in it, I realized a while back the game has a main story and that I never beat. Well, I finally took care of that! Which means finally, finallyfinallyfinally, I unlocked being able to change how the player character looks. I've grown tired of the narrow eyes I gave my character for so long -- I felt they ruined more cute looks (same as I feel about my face in real life). I also gave myself a :3 mouth. I have to share pictures one day.
With a hack I could also play as a male character now, but *looks at the male wardrobe* I'm not really missing out on much by staying a girl...
I'm too lazy to prove it, but I feel like Trendsetters has more male clothing. I haven't played Trendsetters in years and years. I could be very wrong. But the male clothes in Styling Star only make me feel disappointed, but when I saw them in Trendsetters I was like holy shittttttt, so idk if Styling Star cut back on how many there are or if I only felt amazed by the selection in Trendsetters because previously we had 0.
KPop Demon Hunters
I watched this whole thing via FaceTime camera.
Felt like an abridged version of a longer and much better TV show :( It was cute and funny, but the plot was like... it should've been slower and took it's time with some things, but it couldn't because it's a movie. I weep for the TV program or comic book it should have been.
Late Spring
Technically I finished this past midnight of March 1st but idgaf.
I liked it. I may have spent more time focusing on how structured and quality the clothes were back then than what I was supposed to be focusing on, but I liked it. I want to believe that the ending of the movie shows it was all a mistake and they gave up what they had because they were too focused on how things should be according to tradition, but not everyone saw it that way. Hard watch if you have problems with your dad and can't stop projecting btw.
Lessons in Chemistry
by Bonnie Garmus
Almost forgot about this -- I checked it out from the library because it's the reading they're doing at the bilingual book club in this one library, and I wanted to join in on that. I usually read nonfiction because it's easy to pick a new nonfiction book: just find a topic I like and choose whatever is written the least boring. With fiction I don't know how to know if I'll like any random book or not. Well after spending years thinking I need to slowly regain my attention span by reading a few pages a day and then a chapter a day, etc etc, I read this entire book in one sitting when I had planned to only read a little and pass out. And it wasn't even an amazing book. It was like, okay. I suppose it had a way of keeping you on your toes though. But yea: I still got it (the ability to read hundreds of pages in a few hours).
My May goals are much simpler:
- Get a new/nother job for real this time (this one isn't entirely up to me)
- 2+ new chapters up of fanTL
- clean out old emails
because I need to relax. I need more free time so I can
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Date: 2026-05-03 10:23 pm (UTC)and i hope ur job hunt proves fruitful soon! its hard out here, friends of mine have been struggling to get new jobs
also i clicked the itch.io link, but it says nothing was found? id love to play if thats alright! unless you hid it on purpose, in that case no worries!! <3
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Date: 2026-05-03 10:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2026-05-04 06:41 pm (UTC)Of course, the irony is also that, while I often can't have fun reading when I have copious free time, sometimes I will end up reading a boring book while waiting in the rain at a bus stop.
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Date: 2026-05-05 12:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2026-05-09 08:47 pm (UTC)