Happy June

Jun. 1st, 2025 05:01 pm
elyusion: (okuni)
This is a public post... I have to be careful of what I say...
just my life )
elyusion: erm ackshually (nerd)
1. Does anyone know how these were used?


GIFs

I thought about it, and concluded maybe they went on your friends' walls. Kidzworld had comment sections on profiles but we couldn't send images in them, but if I could that's probably how I would've used them? These days I'm not active on any sites that have walls or profile comments anymore... Do I really wanna hop back on SpaceHey just to use these internet greeting cards...

The ones that have no use as a normal greetings card and are just funny I assume are things you would put in your profile/bio/signature/etc. I don't really know though. I'm too young! If anyone knows or remembers the various ways people would use them, please tell me.

2. Does anyone know any microblogging platform that has built-in RSS feeds and customizable profiles beyond "you can choose an icon and header" besides Status.cafe? Or is that the only one? I don't dislike it or anything, I just want to know if I have options.
elyusion: Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (3w4dw)
This marks the end of Three Weeks, although for me it was more like Two Weeks :p I wasn't even going to write this, but I realized if I don't I'll have created only 13 posts for the event, which is... Look, I'm not superstitious, but when things are within my control I don't want to take chances.

The conclusion I've drawn from the past 3 weeks is that either A. this site is cooked, or B. I'm cooked. Probably a lean towards B. Oh well. So it goes. (Point A reminds me of a post/rant I could make about Tumblr users' general unwillingness to try other sites or *gasp* to make a real actual normal blog. So called "bloggers" when they might have to actually blog: [insert gif here cuz im not gonna go find one])

I've also learned that I like writing, but I can only do it when there's some kind of deadline. I wrote all that stuff willingly, and I think someone who doesn't like writing wouldn't have written as much as I did, so yea. I saw that I really really need to work on my art, so I started a self-study course on the fundamentals a few days ago... Which is currently on pause, because it requires printer paper and I don't have any. I had JUST asked to go to the store the day before, so I want to wait a while before I ask again.

Hm... Yup, I think that's all I have to say. 'Till next time.
elyusion: Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (3w4dw)
I was going to post nothing today, but I came across this and then later this, which seemed to me like the world really wanted me to not ignore this exercise. I normally don't like talking about my gender so openly, so please clap.

Gender talk )
elyusion: Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (3w4dw)
I wasn't able to finish the thing I was supposed to share in time, so I'm going to replace it with an opinion piece written while very tired instead. (Might have to replace my plans for Day 4 too... we'll see.)

You may have seen graphs floating around about the reddest (Republicancore) and bluest (Democratcore) baby names. And maybe you've seen this picture before:

pregnant, smiling white woman posed next to a chalkboard with the names Taylee, McKarty, Nayvie, and Maylee crossed out, and the name Lakynn circled

Well. I thought the picture was funny the very first time I saw it, and that's it. Hasn't been funny since. It just makes me feel :/ now. The reason is that I don't believe in making fun of names, except for under very narrow circumstances like naming your child a keysmash or consistently using the letter X because you're obsessed with dystopian scifi while being the one creating said future. It's overplayed and possibly counterproductive, and the Republican-coded names are interesting if you try to look into why they've sprung into popularity. Just like another culture whose names are oft-derided.

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elyusion: Um... well... bwehhh (bwehh)
Sooooo, like the title says, Three Weeks is upon us. I don't remember when I first heard about it... But I'm eager to participate!

I wanted to say this in advance: Sorry if I seem annoying :( During the fest I'd say the point is to disprove DW is dead, so I have posts lined up for every single day of those three weeks, plus I'm going to make myself interact more. I doubt I'll actually post every single day; it'll probably become every other day or every 3 days at some point as I lose steam, but I'll definitely be more active than I already am.

If possible I would like that you, the person reading this, consider joining in. All you have to do is be a little social. Just commenting on stuff more will suffice, but if you want to post more, I suggest creating things people won't be able to get outside of DW (but at the end you can repost them elsewhere!). Of course, if you're not a creative, you can do memes or question prompts and stuff. Any activity is good activity! And don't forget about communities.

By the way, you don't have to post every day like I plan to or anything. You don't have to make creative things either. Just one is awesome! And you have three weeks to do so! I don't want to say what exactly my plans are because I'll be embarrassed if they fall through, but so far I've written 4 pages worth of what I suppose are tutorials. Tutorials on what? You'll see in a few days. ^^
elyusion: (angry)
No matter what, you cannot convince me decreasing birth rates is a real problem. I don't believe in overpopulation - I think we have enough resources to take care of everyone and then some, when distributed properly - but having less people couldn't hurt. Boohoo, taking care of old people will be hard and expensive, whatever. We just have to ride it out for a while and then it'll be over. Instead we act like civilization requires cancerous growth to continue.

There's no way to get birth rates back up to a "desirable" level without sending women back to a position of servitude, bottom line. No matter how many incentives there are, at the end of the day most women who are completely free to make their own choices, no lack of education or opportunities holding them back, will have few or no children. I'm not even going to get into the racism behind the ideology.

So every time I hear anyone seriously entertain the notion of an international fertility "crisis" I roll my eyes hard. Suck it up and reorganize society if it's that serious. 🖕🏾
elyusion: (Default)
Inspired by this guy's videos, here is what I eat on a day with plenty of food in the house.

Breakfast: bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch + blueberry bagel straight out the bag, no topping no toast no nothing. no beverage because I drink the milk from the cereal 😋

Lunch: microwavable personal pan cheese pizza with ice water or fruit soda

Snack: 2~5 slices of honey wheat/cinnamon swirl bread with milk or ice water

Dinner: chicken sandwich, fries, fruit juice/soda

Snack 2: entire family size bag of salt and vinegar Lay's chips, ice water
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elyusion: wtf (shock)
Everyone wasn't lying; anime really has gotten big the past couple of years. For context: for all intents and purposes, if you imagine me as someone who hasn't talked to anyone outside of a very very small amount of friends and hasn't left the house since 2019, that's close enough to my actual situation.

Today I was babysitting a 7 year old. You know, I'm learning that these new kids are still rather strict about gender roles, but that's a story for another time. When I was helping her with her "quarter to/quarter past" clock homework, she saw my phone lockscreen and asked "is that anime?" which I instantly denied because 1. I come from a time and place where liking anime was weirdo shit, sorryyyyyy, and 2. I have a hard time talking to other irl anime fans about this stuff because I don't normally watch popular seasonal stuff. My lockscreen is a bunch of Peepee chibis by the way :3
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elyusion: wtf (shock)
Lately I've been mildly put off by people following me without saying anything. Like, Can I help you?

It just makes me wonder what they're here for. But I don't think I even read something to make me think this way. I wonder if I always felt like this deep down and something about the past internet being more social made me come to this naturally. I'm not going to put in my bios "don't follow me without speaking, or at least dropping a like somewhere," but it really does feel like someone walking into my house without greeting me.

Well, I can't be mad since I'm the one leaving the door open. They'd have to knock first if I was priv, but these are public accounts. I'm not mad at anyone. It just bothers me a little that I don't know what they want.
elyusion: wakamiya surprised icon (huh)
& El Camino.

I end up not making the entries I could because I worry too much about them making perfect sense and looking nice, so I want to just get this one out while it's fresh in my mind even if it's not the best writing.

It seems a lot of people cried at multiple points in Breaking Bad. And it seems the writers took into account the empathy of viewers and avoided making the show sadder than they could have at multiple points. And it seems the actors sometimes had a hard time doing their roles because a certain scene or other was too heavy, although none of this is real. Even in the show, people had reactions to things that I don't understand.

I don't understand why Marie or Walter Jr. reacted to the truth that way. I feel like if I was Marie I would've felt bad for Skyler, because the secret she had to bear for who-knows-how-long was surely hard, and I would've assumed she was purely a victim too. If I was Walter Jr. and my aunt and mother told me my dad is a drug lord, I would say "Oh. Wow. That's... that's crazy," and ask if I would be in trouble if/when he gets caught. After I'm told I'm good, I'd be like "Oh, okay. Cool. ...... So...." Maybe I'm kqueeng of not giving a shit, who knows. I definitely wouldn't have turned down that money if it was guaranteed I wouldn't be in trouble for using it.

This kind of situation, where other people react to things in such a way that I think they're overreacting, happens to me a lot. But if everyone else is acting the same way, I'm likely just underreacting. Sometimes I feel like there's a wall between me and my feelings, or like I wasn't ensouled at birth, but there are also times where I have an incredibly emotional reaction to some shit no one else is affected by, so it's more like my brain decides on a case-by-case basis whichever is more inappropriate and acts that way. Thanks brain.

Unrelated story time: A few years ago, although it feels like decades now, my sister graduated from high school. After the graduation we (mom, dad, me, sister, brother) got into the car -- kind of in a rush, because it was windy and unexpectedly cold for late May. No one said anything. My mom out of the blue said "No reactions? No crying? Hugging? Nothing?" and we three stared at her from the back blankly and did various shrugs. She laughed and said "Damn, I raised some cold-ass niggas," and shifted gears to take us straight home.

Well, I'll see you all later. ⭐
elyusion: (peek)
Holaaaaa tout le monde! This is the entry where I explain myself and the drastic site redesign. It may or may not be up depending on how soon after posting you read this, but yea.

TLDR; Too many people have super busy sites and I wanted to be #different, plus I wanted to streamline my layout, plus I wanted something I made entirely myself, and now I hope I won't be doing anything like this again for a while. I also might get sucked into a tornado later today but it's cool.

You might also notice I seriously streamlined my links page. Worry not! The ones removed from my website will either be reposted here with the #links tag, or they were unnecessary and you won't miss them when I don't share them again. Or you'll see them again in a linkdump even further into the future... You shall see.

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elyusion: moe anime girl sad icon (sad 2)
All these musicians dying as 2025 starts... I think they're being spared from what's to come tbhhhhh

~

19:30/7:30 P.M.

i was wondering why i haven't heard any jokes about balkanization, but i realized it's cuz our democratic reps suck balls and would never ever do anything crazy like suggest secession (maybe 1 of them at best)

and then i was wondering why the civil war started anyways. when the south said "fuck y'all 🖕" the north coulda said "ok bye bitch." mikki said it's cuz the "secession" was a rebellion, which is illegal and all, so it makes sense. i called the north unioncucks. many times i've read u.s. american history and wondered why they didn't just let the south be it's own country since they vote similarly and are probably seen as holding everyone else back, or like a child who always has to be soothed lest it throw an incredibly violent fit, but if the south was it's own country and allowed to do what it wanted i'd be a slave rn sooooo i suppose i should be grateful

Stoicism

Mar. 6th, 2025 06:55 am
elyusion: wtf (shock)
I know because of the reasons I use this site I should make posts about my life that can be shared publicly, but my life is generally boring and consists mainly of being a prisoner in my own home, so I can't think of what to say very often. But I have something right now.

Last Friday I got my hair done. If you didn't know, when you're done having your hair braided (into box braids... I've never seen it done to cornrows personally, at least) sometimes to seal the ends the person doing your hair will hold a lighter or lit match near the ends of your hair, or dip the ends in boiling water.

While she was finishing up, my stylist was talking about how she had an assistant (who is also her friend) once spilled boiling water all over a customer's chest. The poor woman had to get surgery and everything. Never came back again. Was super disappointed; neither the customer nor my stylist could believe her friend was that clumsy.

Right after telling that story, she spilled boiling water on my shoulder.

I didn't want to embarrass her after she just finished talking mad shit about her friend, so I kept a straight face. However, when I started to remove the side of my jacket that had hot water on it, my dad's girlfriend (long story there btw) who had come to get me was like "don't be scared, you're alright" and the stylist said "don't worry, I would never burn you! ^_^" while I was actively burning. So I just sat there and let the pain happen ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Luckily I was wearing a jacket so I didn't actually get a burn, but it was hot as hell.

...

Oh shit, my alarm to get up and get ready for school is gonna go off in 5 minutes. I wanted to take a nap before it rings (/_-)
elyusion: (die)
using yumeship over selfship is so "thing, japan"

it creates the situation of having to define the word over and over again when a newcomer appears, since its meaning isn't immediately self-evident. and then some people define it wrong and misconceptions grow. plus i think selfship only fell out of use because of cringe.

but eventually yumeship will become a cringe term too. then what? mèngship? (for the chinese cultural victory timeline)
elyusion: wakamiya surprised icon (huh)
Before I get into what I wanted to write about... what's up? It's been a while. I check DW every few days, but for various reasons I didn't write anything. I really want to remain active though. I don't want this place to die. Every time I look through LJ communities or journals I think I don't want this place to die, and hope that maybe one day this site feels really and truly alive (for people like me, who don't looove live-action series) so that I can experience a little bit what the people whose two decade-old entries I'm reading experienced. Please... I'm kinda over Discord... can everyone I care about return to forums besides Reddit and communities pleeeease

Anyways.

In my pursuit of sharing the things I draw online in a way that causes me the least anxiety, I've created a system. First, anything I draw that pleases me goes on my website. If I draw something that I think is so nice it's a shame to leave it on a site where barely no one will ever see it, I post it on Sheezy.art. If it gets a certain amount of likes on Sheezy - and it's not a high number, since Sheezy is kind of sleepy right now - I post it on Tumblr. After a certain amount of notes, I put in on Bluesky. And this hasn't happened yet, and I don't really know what number to make it anyways since it seems most fandom people decided to stay on Twitter despite everything, but if something got sufficient numbers on Bluesky I'd put it on Pixiv.

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Snow Day

Jan. 22nd, 2025 06:45 am
elyusion: (Default)

As I write this, white snow coats the southern U.S.......... but it's not very thick at all, not where I am. I'm unimpressed, to be frank. The winter storm 10 years ago was more impressive. But still, snow is very pretty. Would hate to live somewhere that has it all time! LOL

I'm writing this a little before 7 am, but I'm going to hold out on finishing it until the sun comes out... by then it'll be done snowing, and I want to attach a picture of our weaksauce snow.

07:42 A.M.
Concerned about metadata, I pulled out my old digital camera to take photos of the snow, but the battery is dead and I can't find the charger. I don't think I even still have it. I have a feeling my dad threw it out when I lived in a college dorm. So I used my 3DS.

But then I worried a weirdo could identify my location from the photos, so I censored the houses... haha. The photos I took with my phone look much prettier, nearly unreal - shame I can't share them publicly. If I had a car I could drive somewhere else for photos, but that would require stepping foot on the raw snow, and a large part of its beauty is that it's untouched.

Going to be honest, I touched it a little bit. I dug my finger into it to see how deep it is. I'd say it's ~1.5 inches, about the same as the last storm.

 

[02/10/2025, 1:14 P.M.: microblog repost]

elyusion: (happy)
Hello whoever may be reading this. Hope you're doing well, and if not, I hope things get better. This entry is like a combined journal entry + dump of links.

Normal Journal Entry )

Things I've Done )

Things Others Made )

Near-Future Plans )

And here's my Nintendo Year in Review! :]

Favorite Game of 2024: Metal Gear SolidPlayed most in January - 44 hours played - Jan 44, Feb 27, Mar 6, Apr 4, May 13, Jun 19, Jul 30, Sep 6, Oct 1, Nov 17Narrative Adventure 26%, Action 23%, Character Driven 14%, Most-played Games of 2024: Harukanaru Toki no Naka de 7, Fashion Dreamer, Metal Gear Solid 2 / 28 total games, 171 total hours
 
Like how I never want to decide between Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask, I don't want to decide between Metal Gear Solid and Metal Gear Solid 2. When I beat 3 I'll probably feel the same. So I'm using MGS1 as a representation of all 3. Or all 2.2. Because I haven't beat Snake Eater. That's a 2025 goal for sure.

You know what's funny about my hours suddenly dipping in March... I think that's when I started Angelique. :P

That's all for now. See you around.

(This entry was started at 2:29pm and posted at 6:25pm, for my own personal record.)
 
elyusion: (happy)
Just spent $200 on Angelique stuff, will probably be spending more in a few days when I have to pay for shipping for the first $100 batch of stuff.

What did I get?
(Digital Purchases)
- Angelique (manga, yes the whole thing. applies to the other manga as well)
- Angelique Retour (manga)
- Angelique Retour ~Secret Side~ (manga)
- Yura Kairi Artbook ~Angelique 20th Anniversary~
(Physical Purchases)
- Angelique Gaiden vol. 1-4 (drama CDs, the whole series)
- Angelique Gaiden 2 vols. 1, 3, and 4 because 2 has disappeared off the face of the Earth apparently? No one is selling vol. 2. I wonder how I can be notified when someone does... (drama CDs)
- Angelique Memorial Book
- Angelique Special 2 Memorial Book
- Star Crown: Yura Kairi Angelique's Selected Art Book

It hurts badly to see the money leave my bank account, it really does. If you know me, you know I dislike spending money on frivolities and often manage to talk myself out of purchasing anything that's not food. But, Angelique obsession aside, I can justify this purchase as being for the greater good too. I'm going to have these on hand, make an Angelique fansite (maybe a general Neoromance fansite, depending on how things go), get better and better at Japanese, and I'll put all this stuff on there with translations as needed. They're out of print so no one should get mad, right? They better not. Snitches don't look.

I thought maybe this was all pointless, because if you are so into Angelique that you want to see all this stuff you probably already know Japanese. But I've decided knowing Japanese doesn't mean you always want to read it when someone else could translate it, nor does it mean having the money to buy one million books and magazines and discs. So I will still be useful. I think. I hope so!

So far I've looked through the 20th anniversary art book, and it's really so beautiful. Yura is an amazing artist. Her newer art, like for the 2025 calendar, is beginning to show signs of age... I can't explain it, but I can see it in Ikeno Koi's art too, as well as others. It's like it gets really stiff or something...? But yea, amazing art, lots I haven't seen yet. I'm excited to show it to others, but the tool to get these pages off Bookwalker requires Python knowledge or something, and I have exactly none, so... But I'll figure it out. Later, because I have a 5-page essay due tonight that I haven't started and also have no thesis for yet. I swear I will put all this stuff online. Although it might be a few weeks or months, because I'm prioritizing personal stuff on my website first, and then fannish pursuits. But I will do it. I will share these pictures, translate this manga, translate these OVAs if I'm feeling particularly insane, transcribe and translate the audio dramas, I'll do it all. Fuck the police. Angelique is awesome. Bottom text.