sometimes i wonder
Mar. 3rd, 2025 03:07 amhe could probably smack sylvain around a little too, if they cared.
*for example, i have yet to actually watch idolish7, but i've seen that one seen where glasses boy attacks the guy with white hair(?) soooo many times, plus i wrote the episode number and time in my official Three Hopes™️ notebook so i can go back to it whenever
Happy Birthday Peepee!!!!!!!!!!!
Feb. 21st, 2025 02:54 pm
Happy birthday to a very special boy! Yes, I'm a day late, and I didn't even draw anything despite having plenty of forewarning, but he has been on my mind. Of course I couldn't forget about my all-time favorite character, even if I don't post about him a lot anymore. Most people seeing this won't know I posted about him on Twitter and was so annoying about him in DMs that he came to me in a dream to stop me. I was exiting a single-stall bathroom and Felix was by the door waiting in line, and when he saw me he was like "aren't you the guy who keeps making weird posts about me online?" and I started running. So maybe think about that whenever you think my dedication doesn't seem to be strong anymore. (LOL)
Today seems as good a day as any for drafting what I want to put on my Felix shrine page. I should be doing this for Clavis first since I actually have the design for his up and running, but it's not Clavis's special day now is it? He can wait.
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Guardians Growing Up
Jan. 15th, 2025 10:25 pmDo you think when a guardian turns a certain age in the seichi they get super special clothes? Or is it just the oldest who get them? Because Julious and Clavis are rather fancily dressed. I mean, irl, character-design wise, I'm sure it was just "they're light and dark, the most basic things, so we're making them the oldest and most gaudily dressed," but I mean in-world. Because when you look at art of them younger they aren't dressed super fancy.
So to combine these, I would assume that only the guardians of light and dark get super epic fancy ultra rare clothes, and they only get them after a certain age. So now I wonder if it's there's a celebration for that or not. If their home cultures said reaching a certain age is a big deal I'm sure seichi would accommodate... plus they're men; many cultures have initiations and etc. for them to mark adulthood due to the typical lack of a period, a clear marker of reaching adulthood... hm hm hm much to think about
[02/10/2025, 1:06 P.M.: microblog repost]
Testament & Belly Dancing
Jan. 11th, 2025 12:00 pmI don't use TikTok. My friend sent me this. You'll never guess who I thought of.
If it was up to me and I had to give Testament a dance-related hobby, it would've been pole dancing. But sometimes when I see belly dancing I see why the staff (character designer? who decides hobbies?) would've thought of this too. Assuming they were being pure of heart. I don't know about other people, but when I first saw that a hobby of theirs was belly dancing I thought of how every gacha game has to have the obligatory orientalist (MENA and south asia) banner, and how they seem to think every woman dresses (or dressed, pre-Islam) like a stereotypical belly dancer, so I wasn't very impressed. But when I use the mental image "suburban mom introducing new things to her workout routine" I'm less :/ about it. it gets a little silly then actually :3
That said, the guy in the TikTok is in an Anubis-themed outfit, so there's definitely some orientalism going on there. But nice moves! Makes me wish I could animate... not many people draw Tes belly dancing... Do they not know they like it? Since obviously (enough) Japanese people LOVE their little Disney's Aladdin-esque banners you would think there'd be a lot of art on Pixiv or something, but there isn't. Elsewhere in the world I think it's because it's lowkey giving cultural appropriation, but I think belly dancing isn't a closed practice, and I feel like the consensus on it is "be respectful." It didn't give me the ICK when iIsaw they like doing it, but I was like.... y'know..... I guess I was mistrustful of the devs' intentions. Still am. But. I can still draw Tes being respectful about it if i'm being respectful about it, even if someone else was thinking "sexy desert jewel cosplay🤤" (Chris decides not to speak on how many goths love things that are ~exotic~ and ~different~ and how it can't be said they're known for being respectful about it)
I've wanted to draw them on the pole for a long time, but I used to fear that no matter how I go about it, everyone who saw would assume that I drew it solely to get off, since people can be weird about pole dancing. I don't really fear that anymore since I can just leave it on my personal website :33 But I actually have a drawing queue and I won't be able to draw tes for another 5 drawings 👍🏾 Wish me luck.
[02/10/2025, 12:42 P.M.: repost from microblog]
Clavis & Testament
Jan. 8th, 2025 12:00 pm
They have a lot in common; I really want to draw them together. There's a lot of things I want to draw though... I wish I drew faster. Or I should dedicate a day to staying the hell off the computer so i Have to draw (or read or game).
But basically, listen. They kind of look the same, except Clavis is a little taller and his eyes are smaller. And Testament isn't built like a triangle. If using ML Tes as the point of comparison then their bodies are probably more similar, but Clavis has more shoulder. #seme. And I think of pre-Strive Tes as being bony, but Clavis has servants and friends nearby who would make him eat even if he's too melancholic to care.
They both preside over death! For Tes I think it's just an aesthetic thing; they're probably not actually the Grim Reaper... Probably seemed that way to all the people they killed, but like, you can say that about any (mass) murderer. Clavis may not have a scythe, but he is the guardian of darkness. His sacrea brings peace, but also! It brings the most eternal peace of all 😌 So he also kills people, although I wonder if the deaths in question are all from illness or suicide or something since the others guardians' power Also can bring death (ex. too much water creates floods, which *gasp* kill people)
They're both sad, lonesome, pathetic little inidividuals. Tes gets better! So Tes may not be associated with that image anymore. Clavis also gets better. I felt he was a little less cold in Etoile, so one must assume that Limoges and Colette's prescence were just so awesome that they kinda fixed him. (What does this say about Dia?) You may point out that Tes was never Alone because they had their familiars, but Clavis wasn't either because he always had the other guardians, especially Luva and Lumiale, and that's not even getting into the servants. And I suppose he had the queen aide too, although they don't show Dia interacting with them a lot? Those are a bunch of humans and Clavis still acted the way he did, so maybe he should have been a little grateful that at least he's not Testament who post-Dizzy, pre-movingtothevillage, only had Creatures of dubious linguistic abilities (/JOKE btw)
I'm going to end this by saying........... They share some hobbies :) Clavis likes tarot and scrying via crystal ball and star-gazing :) Tes likes star-gazing and fortune-telling :)) twinninggggg. and Tes has lots of outdoor hobbies besides that, so they could become his friend via the previously listed hobbies and then make him grow as a person by slowly sucking him into some more active stuff. Tes doesn't have to fix anyone, of course, but :) yknow :) we can hold someone's hand as we help them back to their feet once they decide they're ready to stand up, can't we? :D :) :3 :3c :p ^_-
Feb 12, 10:34 A.M. edit: Thanks to a very helpful person in a server, I was able to get the pic of Clavis and the deer from Fushigi no Kuni :3 For further comparison!


You know, I coulda swore there were pictures of Tes in nature that were less ominous and had the various forest creatures on/near them, not Dizzy, but I guess I was thinking of something from a yonkoma or doujinshi. Well, if you know Testament hopefully you get the point!!
[02/10/2025, 12:00 P.M.~ish: microblog repost]
Ange Misunderstanding
Jan. 2nd, 2025 12:00 pmCan I just talk about a game here because I don't know where else I'd find English-speaking fans of it? Like, this is the kind of thing that would normally be it's own post but...
This is about Angelique. Okay, so, when I played the first game I assumed that when you get the Love ending with someone, you two have to fuck off forever. He can't be a guardian anymore AND you can't have anything to do with ruling the universe. That's what it looks like, right?? Did I misread something in the ending????
I don't even remember where I learned this, but it turns out that if you get with a guardian you become the Queen's aide. Reminder that I played all the Angelique games more-or-less in order, and I got to Retour still thinking that way. Somewhere between Retour and Luminarise it clicked.
I like my idea better though. From what I've found going through many fansites on the Wayback machine, it seems most people care waaaaay more about the love endings than becoming queen ending. So most people won't feel that their dropping out the exam is a loss. But I thought that it was you either become queen, I guess become aide if you lose (frankly I did not consider what would happen if I lose because I never lose 😎), or you get with a guardian but he has to abandon the home he's made for himself and you have to lose the relationships you've made there too, + even if you return to the Main Planet everyone is old asf/dead.
Did anyone else make this mistake? Do I only prefer my mistaken idea of love endings because I love angst? Am I crazy?
First: I will be answering all the questions in one of those ask memes that get spread around. I would never get enough likes to be able to answer more than 3 max, so I'll be doing them all here.
( 47 Questions from Bluesky )Now, I have to translate something. I'm going to go with a page or two from Angelique Memorial Book. The first few pages don't have any (non-English) text, so we move to page 8.
( Angelique Memorial Book - Angelique & Rosalia )
Bye for now. Starting Harukanaru Toki no Naka de now... >:) ... After I draw. I have to draw first. But then gaming.
( Normal Journal Entry )
( Things I've Done )
( Things Others Made )
( Near-Future Plans )
And here's my Nintendo Year in Review! :]



You know what's funny about my hours suddenly dipping in March... I think that's when I started Angelique. :P
That's all for now. See you around.
(This entry was started at 2:29pm and posted at 6:25pm, for my own personal record.)
Short Posts 11/17~12/07/2024
Nov. 17th, 2024 12:00 pm11/17/2024
clavis’ eyes are very small, but his lid space… olivie should say something about this. his lid space is insane and he’s wasting it. and he’s handsome and mysterious - he could make an even greater mysterious beauty than olivie if he tried. he needs to be dolled up stat
11/17/2024
and the craziest thing about clavis having lumiale play the harp for him till he goes sleepybye is i know damn well he has access to a stereo


much to think about.
12/02/2024
imagine if guilty gear treated testament the way virche evermore treats lucas
12/07/2024
i wish there were a more neutral word to use, but i'm pretty sure clavis is an orientalist. i mean it like a person who likes (the aesthetics of) the orient, in his case the far east specifically. i don't mean that he looks down on them or anythinginterestingly, there was no planet shown in tenkuu no requiem that seemed to be Space Japan. there were characters in trois who were giving asian fantasy... but they're apparently from the future of colette's universe?? not sure what to do with this information (not to mention they feel more chinese and clavis at his most orientalist, in etoile, has a japanese feel). (elda looks a rejected design from fushigi yuugi, but thats neither here nor there)
but anyways, #yea. add this to your list of clavis interests nonexistent fanfic writers..............
[02/10/25, 10:55 A.M.: repost from microblog. these posts are pretty much all normal things to say, so they get to be public]